I am now here.
Is anyone still reading? I sure hope so – otherwise, this update is being written for nothing!
What has changed since my last post on July 17th?
- I am now married
- I am now a law student
- I am now moved into a house in a new city
- I have a TOTALLY new and crazy routine
- I have no free time
The wedding was PERFECT. As soon as the professional pictures are ready (believe it or not, they are still not finished with editing them) I will post a few. Lucky for you, though, the honeymoon pictures are up! If you go here you can see them. There are about 800 and I kind of gave up on giving appropriate titles and explanations, so just be aware of that.
Law school is amazing, time consuming, and extremely difficult. Amazing because it is what I have always wanted to do, and since the first day I have felt totally in my element. Time consuming because I literally have no free time - I am either in class or studying during all hours of the day! Extremely difficult because I miss having a life, having time to spend with my husband, and not feeling that guilt of “I need to read” or “I need to study” looming over me everyday.
I came down with some sort of flu this week, and yesterday I didn’t get out of bed. Luckily, today I am feeling much better. I’m going to get caught up on cleaning, do homework, and prepare for the weekend study session that will occur tomorrow and Sunday. We have a Contracts midterm coming up on Thursday, and I do not feel as prepared as I want to feel.
Oh my, Kate Gosselin is really on The View right now?! You have got to be kidding me. And her hair is hideous, I’m sorry. Anyway, I’m off to get going on all this stuff. I am keeping up with everyone via Google Reader, and I’m going to try to get back on Twitter more than once a month. :)
I Still Exist!
Jul 17
I’m alive, I swear (for those of you still reading). The last month or so has been SO busy. I’ve never been this busy in my life! And I thought things would calm down a little after graduation – I was totally wrong! Anyway, the bachelorette was last weekend, moving this weekend, unpacking next weekend and wedding the next weekend after that! Craziness. I will have lots and lots of pictures to post – sometime next week in between unpacking boxes, I’ll have some free time. Sit tight, I’ll be back to do a proper update!
Jon & Kate Separate
Jun 24
Do you watch Jon & Kate Plus 8 on TLC? I have been watching the show for the last few years, and to say that I’m upset about the outcome is an understatement. Obviously, the show has impacted their marriage – we can’t forget Nick Lachey and Jessica Simpson, can we? – but the media has really turned their family into a mockery. I feel bad for both parents (and especially for the kids). What was shown on television was Kate being demanding, controlling, and striving for everything to be done her way. Is that how it was 100% of the time? Probably not. But that is how she was portrayed. Jon should not have been treated the way he was on the show, but we don’t know what happened the rest of the time, and I really don’t think it’s far for America to judge as if they know this family intimately. I feel bad for Kate for the same reason – she was portrayed one way on the show, and that was as a demanding, loud, controlling mother. But how was she off-camera? I hate how America just assumes and judges her for it. I don’t agree with her behavior on-camera, but that doesn’t mean I think she acts like that all the time. With the power of editing, you can portray anyone in a positive or negative light.
By the end of the hour long episode Monday night, I was crying. Crying for a few reasons. One, you could tell that Kate especially was having such a hard time, and I hate to see people that way. It seems that Jon is less outwardly emotional, but you could tell he wasn’t happy either. Two, I remember being the 8 year old, sitting at the dining room table and being told, “Mommy and Daddy can’t live together anymore.” Memories of my parents’ divorce came flooding back, which is the main reason why I cried. And lastly, I cried because I am afraid of the same outcome when I have children. Granted, we are going to have half as many kids as the Gosselins at the most, but the thought is still in my mind. I know I will never be the one to ask for a divorce, but we cannot guarantee that things will change once kids are involved. We have both promised each other that we will not turn to divorce and that we will work through our problems to the best of the ability. The fear is still there, though, for me.
Mostly, I feel so sorry for the Gosselin children, who for the rest of their lives will be prone to paparazzi and invasion of privacy. They will forever be known FIRST as the kids who were on television for the first five years of their lives; the kids with parents whose divorce unfolded on TV and in tabloids, etc. It is hard enough to realize that your parents are not staying together (and I highly doubt the kids understand that just yet, but they will in time), let alone all the other things that will happen to them. With the discontinuation of filming of Jon & Kate Plus 8 I am hoping that the parents really focus on the kids, keep themselves out of the spotlight, and help them cope with the divorce.
I hope that the parents have planned ahead in the event that something happen to them. No doubt Jon and Kate Gosselin have life insurance. I wonder if they received it through TLC or if they got an online life insurance quote when the babies were born.
Unsure
Jun 22
All the wedding buzz that is going on in our families right now is a lot of fun, but with a little over a month to go, I’m starting to get nervous. My anxiety has increased, I’m having more difficulty falling asleep, and my mind races a lot. I’m not unsure about getting married or unsure about marrying Tom, but it’s just kind of scary. Maybe the scariness is a combination of things – moving to a new city, starting at a new school, uncertainty of jobs, etc. So much is happening all at the same time, and I am finally starting to realize that I can’t just ignore it. I need to process my feelings and everything that is going on, because if I don’t, I will start feeling miserable.
Tom and I went to an all-day marriage retreat through our church on Saturday, and we both got A LOT from it. It focused on communication, finances/stewardship, and natural family planning. There was an older couple, who have been married for 40 years, that came towards the end of the retreat. They talked about the struggles they went through and how they got to where they are today. I have to admit, I had tears in my eyes at the end of their presentation because it was so special to see a long-lasting marriage (especially in the wake of my parents’ devastating divorce). The retreat helped us both a lot, but it actually helped me quite a bit personally – with my anxiety and uncertainty about what is ahead for me and for my marriage. I feel more calm and ready for what’s up next in my life.
I guess I just needed to vent about my worries and how I’m feeling, because I feel so much better already!
On another note, I wanted to let you know that I am trying to get back into paid posting. As always, I’m not going to write crappy posts just for the sake of posting the links I need to. I try really hard to add the links into posts in a way that does not distract the reader. Sometimes that can be difficult (like when I have to come up with topics for the same weight loss pills links) but I do try my best.
