When it’s cold outside….
I worked earlier and was in a wonderful mood, but I really don’t know why. Maybe it’s because it’s the first time I’ve taken my Lexapro in a week. I thought, because of the Nyquil, that the combination of the two was making me really drowsy (and extremely loopy) but according to my pharmacist it was from being so sick.
According to my therapist, Valerie, I have to spend an hour 3 times this week just worrying. So, if you see me rambling in my livejournal, you’ll know why. We’re trying to see if we can figure the root of all of my worries and if I can actually “worry” myself to the point that I don’t worry as much as I do now.
I am definitely going off of Depo. I am up to some major gainage (yes, I know it’s a made up word TYVM!) in lbs, and it’s really really bothering me. I’m sure you guys already knew that because I constantly post about how unhappy I am about it. I spend a good amount of time at the gym (when I’m not sick, heh) and my eating habits have certainly improved. Right now, I am in the process of changing my eating habits yet again - not necessarily what I eat, but when and how much. I only eat when my stomach tells me I’m hungry (versus eating when I think I’m hungry but I’m not, which I like to call “empty eating”), which is a LOT less frequently than I would have thought. Don’t worry, I’m eating breakfast. And I’m not starving myself. I just don’t eat as much as I was prior to starting this. No matter what I’ve done though, I haven’t noticed any weight loss - of course, I should be noticing at least my pants getting bigger or something, because I know I’m gaining muscle (so I know the scale might not necessarily move or go down, and may even go up)…but come on, I should be noticing something!
Heather, what was that stuff that you bought to help “jump start” your weight loss again? I think I’m going to try it….
This week has been beautiful so far. Sunday it was extremely hot and humid, but yesterday was nice. I think the high was only like 75. This morning when I went to work the temperature was under 35 degrees in my car, which is so extremely NOT like Florida! It was great. Even now, I’m in pants and a long-sleeved blouse and when I was outside earlier on my laptop, I was too cold; I had to come into the building that my next class is in so that I could warm up.
The Florida Women in Business meeting is tonight and Valerie made me promise that I would go. I’m really going to try to go alone. I really hope to God I don’t chicken out. I really need to get over that. If I want to be active on campus, I need to get my ass in gear. I’m totally over this social anxiety bullshit…it’s for the birds.
Alrighty I think that’s all I can talk about right now … can’t really think of anything else. What random thoughts though, huh? :-D
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I think that’s a good idea for your therapist to allow you to worry!
The stuff I bought was generic Zantrex, but I heard “NV” is really good too! Carmen Elecktra endorses that brand.
Changing your diet/eating right and working out are great, but I’ve heard that any results take six weeks to show. Has it been six weeks? I know also that your right about DEPO, it causes weight gain which is the main reason I’m not on it nor have I even considered it, I don’t need any help with my weight gain lol…I dod a fine job on my own…lol
The problem is, I started working out heavily with Colleen in August, at the beginning of the semester. That happens to be right around the time that I started the Depo. That’s how I am almost positive that my weight has gone up BECAUSE of the Depo.
With all the cardio Bobbi and I have been doing, while it’s not enough to see MUCH of a result, there should be something. Her cardio endurance has improved a lot, but you can’t see that she’s made any progress :(