Finally, the day has come where we move OUT of this tiny, one bedroom apartment and upgrade to a two bedroom with a fenced in backyard (and where people don’t die in our apartment pool - but that’s a whole ‘nother story!). I’ve actually got about 3 hours before we can get the keys, so I’m somewhat relaxed. I plan to do the dishes, read a little, and study in the next three hours. Hunter and Romeo are both sound asleep and the only noise in my apartment is the fishtank because it’s low on water (easier to move when it’s like that).
Sometimes, I go through tough times. Nothing particularly bad goes on in my life, I just don’t always have the most positive attitude. In the past several weeks, I’ve realized how easy it is for me to go from being in a great mood to seriously hating my life. It’s like someone has flipped a switch, and that concerns me.
But to be honest, I have so much to be thankful for. I have a wonderful family - despite the major drama we have going on from time to time - they are supportive of me and only want what is best for me. I wouldn’t be who I am today without Tom. I can’t wait to take on his last name and make our relationship the most official it can be. My little kitty cat makes me so happy, too - he knows just how to cheer me up. I really think animals know when you’re sad or upset, even if you’re not outwardly showing it. This new little puppy is already very protective of Tom and I, too.
School is going well, I have the most amazing friends a girl could ask for, my bills are paid, there’s food on the table. I have a good job, go to a GREAT university, and have spent the last three years of my life living it up and enjoying myself immensely. I’ve grown a lot, and learned even more about myself than I ever could imagine.
With all of that being said, why shouldn’t I be more positive? I need to learn to push the negative thoughts away - as I just demonstrated, there is no reason to have the negative thoughts. There’s nothing about me that needs to change - maybe minor things, like not cursing so much or getting more exercise - but I’m not a bad person. I am compassionate, helpful, genuine, and trustworthy. Daily, I need to remind myself of this because in some cases where confidence is essential, I’m being held back. Considering the way my life is right now, why shouldn’t I be more confident?
July 15th, 2008 at 3:41 pm
Congrats on the new home! It must be exciting! I, on the other hand, am still living at home with my parents. LOL. Oh well the bills are paid and I get to save up and shop. ;) I def. can’t wait to own my own home though.
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July 15th, 2008 at 6:44 pm
Aw, this was such a positive, encouraging post! It made my smile. I’m happy and excited for you! And you’re right, there’s no reason why you shouldn’t feel positive and confident! You have lots of be grateful for. But, I always think that sometimes it takes the negativity and the bad times to make you truly grateful for the good. It’s good to have a balance of the two. Can’t wait to see pictures of the new place! I’m envious. ;)
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July 16th, 2008 at 4:42 pm
hey there. I just started reading your blog today and I notice that we are a lot alike. So I know what its like to have everything you need but feel like you have nothing. and its not like there’s something missing really…its more a feeling of inactivity. let me know if you ever want to talk!
July 16th, 2008 at 10:01 pm
How exciting! Congratulations! :) The hubby and I might be moving into a house soon even though it isn’t ours. You know.. I have times like that as well where I just forget all the things I have to be thankful for and start feeling sorry for myself. It’s a good thing that you realize you do it and DO realize you have many, many things to be thankful for. But, in my opinion, going through those times is all a part of life so don’t feel too bad about it!
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July 17th, 2008 at 11:58 pm
yay moving day!! :D i think everyone has those days or those weeks where they just feel blah for no reason. i get that way sometimes even though i have ridiculous amounts of things to be thankful for!! just keep your head up and remember what all you have to be thankful for. but i wouldn’t worry too much about it. we all have those days!
July 19th, 2008 at 10:49 pm
I know how you feel about confidence. I am slowly regaining mine! Congratulations on the new place!
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July 22nd, 2008 at 5:16 pm
Hope your move is going well and that you’re getting settled in. Looking forward to some updates.. =)
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July 24th, 2008 at 12:02 am
yaya for moving. i hope everything goes smoothly. i hate moving, just because i hate to pack up stuff and unpack it. but i do like decorating and such. i want to see pics when you move in:)
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