Jul 29

…You’re one hell of a dedicated reader!

On the puppy front: Hunter has adjusted SO WELL to being with us.  We haven’t had an accident in several days and after four times of teaching “sit” he already knows the command!  He’s fairly good at coming when he is called, and sleeps a lot in the afternoons after he’s been worn out during play time.  He’s still pretty afraid of cars and any loud noises outside (ex. last night there was a weed wacker across the street from where we were walking, and he wouldn’t budge for a good 10 minutes).  We’re working on the fear, though - not forcing the issue, but slowly making progress.  At the vet yesterday, Hunter was an angel (according to Tom).  He weighs 18 lbs, has a tiny case of hookworm (apparently pretty common in puppies, but an extremely mild case), and is more like 16 weeks old, not 13 like we thought.  He has one more shot and then he’ll be done with puppy shots altogether.  We absolutely ADORE him even when he’s misbehaving.  I’ve been working with him on biting (when he’s playing he gets a little rough sometimes) and that’s going well.  He also met Tom’s mom, sister and nephew last weekend - he LOVED playing with a two year old little boy (who loved playing with the puppy).

On the move front: I turned in the keys to the old apartment yesterday.  WHAT A RELIEF.  I am so glad to be out of that tiny place.  Our apartment now is much bigger, and I’m happy to say that we’re 100% moved in and unpacked.  We’ve had maintenance in here fixing the small stuff - they have been very quick and happy to help with whatever we’ve needed.  So far, I really like this complex and am pleased with the people working here and the neighbors.  There are no noise problems, either!

On the school front: I am almost finished with my ASL 2 class.  I have a project due next week along with my SCPI (basically an interview with my professor which will determine my level of proficiency in the language).  I am taking ASL 3 in the fall (I think I mentioned this already) and am excited about it!  I’ve been thinking a lot lately about law school, the LSAT, etc. etc.  I’m thinking about getting my MBA.  I’d love to get my MBA and law degree at the same time, so I’m looking into that at the moment.  I still need to retake my LSAT, though.

On the family front: My older sister and her daughter came to Florida to visit last week.  We had a ton of fun going to theme parks and visiting our aunt and uncle.  I also made a birthday cake for her (her birthday was Sunday, the day they left) that she ended up having for breakfast because she liked it so much the night before!  I’m hoping we’ll be able to get out and visit them in Texas more often.  Time and money are scarce for me right now, but I plan on really making an effort.  Family is so important and I’d hate to lose that relationship.

Man, I’m stuffed.  A friend and I went out for lunch to catch up (since we haven’t seen each other in forever!) and I ate too much.  Now I have to do a little bit of homework and start some laundry before class.  Thankfully, I have started to be on a fairly normal work schedule again.  The office is pretty happy about that - with everything going on this summer, I’ve been a bit unreliable.  Thankfully, though, they understand, and my work doesn’t make it necessary for me to be there at the same time or same day as the previous week.

Jul 15

Finally, the day has come where we move OUT of this tiny, one bedroom apartment and upgrade to a two bedroom with a fenced in backyard (and where people don’t die in our apartment pool - but that’s a whole ‘nother story!). I’ve actually got about 3 hours before we can get the keys, so I’m somewhat relaxed. I plan to do the dishes, read a little, and study in the next three hours. Hunter and Romeo are both sound asleep and the only noise in my apartment is the fishtank because it’s low on water (easier to move when it’s like that).

Sometimes, I go through tough times. Nothing particularly bad goes on in my life, I just don’t always have the most positive attitude. In the past several weeks, I’ve realized how easy it is for me to go from being in a great mood to seriously hating my life. It’s like someone has flipped a switch, and that concerns me.

But to be honest, I have so much to be thankful for. I have a wonderful family - despite the major drama we have going on from time to time - they are supportive of me and only want what is best for me. I wouldn’t be who I am today without Tom. I can’t wait to take on his last name and make our relationship the most official it can be. My little kitty cat makes me so happy, too - he knows just how to cheer me up. I really think animals know when you’re sad or upset, even if you’re not outwardly showing it. This new little puppy is already very protective of Tom and I, too.

School is going well, I have the most amazing friends a girl could ask for, my bills are paid, there’s food on the table. I have a good job, go to a GREAT university, and have spent the last three years of my life living it up and enjoying myself immensely. I’ve grown a lot, and learned even more about myself than I ever could imagine.

With all of that being said, why shouldn’t I be more positive? I need to learn to push the negative thoughts away - as I just demonstrated, there is no reason to have the negative thoughts. There’s nothing about me that needs to change - maybe minor things, like not cursing so much or getting more exercise - but I’m not a bad person. I am compassionate, helpful, genuine, and trustworthy. Daily, I need to remind myself of this because in some cases where confidence is essential, I’m being held back. Considering the way my life is right now, why shouldn’t I be more confident?