All the wedding buzz that is going on in our families right now is a lot of fun, but with a little over a month to go, I’m starting to get nervous.  My anxiety has increased, I’m having more difficulty falling asleep, and my mind races a lot.  I’m not unsure about getting married or unsure about marrying Tom, but it’s just kind of scary.  Maybe the scariness is a combination of things – moving to a new city, starting at a new school, uncertainty of jobs, etc.  So much is happening all at the same time, and I am finally starting to realize that I can’t just ignore it.  I need to process my feelings and everything that is going on, because if I don’t, I will start feeling miserable.

Tom and I went to an all-day marriage retreat through our church on Saturday, and we both got A LOT from it.  It focused on communication, finances/stewardship, and natural family planning.  There was an older couple, who have been married for 40 years, that came towards the end of the retreat.  They talked about the struggles they went through and how they got to where they are today.  I have to admit, I had tears in my eyes at the end of their presentation because it was so special to see a long-lasting marriage (especially in the wake of my parents’ devastating divorce).  The retreat helped us both a lot, but it actually helped me quite a bit personally – with my anxiety and uncertainty about what is ahead for me and for my marriage.  I feel more calm and ready for what’s up next in my life.

I guess I just needed to vent about my worries and how I’m feeling, because I feel so much better already!

On another note, I wanted to let you know that I am trying to get back into paid posting.  As always, I’m not going to write crappy posts just for the sake of posting the links I need to.  I try really hard to add the links into posts in a way that does not distract the reader.  Sometimes that can be difficult (like when I have to come up with topics for the same weight loss pills links) but I do try my best.